So you could give me wings
And make me fly?
Then maybe I could touch the sky
To watch my dreams come true
But don't think, that dream is you
Dear dragonfly
Your no miracle I prayed for
Or begged a saint for
Heaven sent? So send it back
I don't need you to save me
All I ever wanted to be
Was real
And learn how to really feel
So you can glide away
Because I don't need another fairy tale
And I don't need my hope inside your dreams
To make it fly
So don't dream of me tonight
I don't want to fly anyway
Sow my heart onto your sleeve
And every pin prick of pain
Will be
Beautiful
Like the sky at night
As we watch the shooting stars
In flight
Under the same sky
And even if I'm not there
You'll wear my heart on your sleeve
You amaze me
Because you don't fit a metaphor
I'm confused by what I see
As you stroll aimlessly
Through my heart
And I trust you despite everything
I don't need your love
To get me through the day
Or just to keep me sane
And it's a wonder
But every time you walk my way
I want you to walk by
Again
Butterflies Are Overrated by princess-erin, literature
Literature
Butterflies Are Overrated
In a candlelit cell
My solitude grows
While the rain outside
Pitter patters its prose
Spitting down on me, its misery
Pouring in grief
And when I finally fall it's such a relief
And I won't think of you
I spend each day trying to loose
The memory of what we're not
And each night ask, how can I forget?
When I always remember what I forgot?
Because you just won't go away
And it cuts me every time
Don't know where to draw the line
Because even that hurts
The rain in summer confuses me
I'm bemused inside my head
You used to give me butterflies
Felt like I could rise
And fly, far away from here
But now I have a sudden fear
O
I cried in the shower again today
It hides the tears
That gather in my cloudy eyes
Because I'm scared of the storm that hits me
Whenever I hear from you
But it's not like you'd notice anyway…
Without you,
What have I got to look forward to?
A jagged line of guys
Who would treat me like a broken toy
Who'd been thoughtlessly thrown aside
By a careless child
And they'd try and put me back together
I didn't even know I was broken?!
I'd rather be broken with you
Then fixed without….
I could say we were like a flickering candle flame
You're never sure if it will burn away
Or just stay strong
But we're not poetic enough for that
Confused, bemused, unsure
Don't know what to do anymore?!
I know that I'm alone
Unhappy cold as stone
And do you even care?
I'm just a girl
And we both break the same
Both get burnt by the same flame
Even if your not here…
Scared, surprised, unsteady
Knowing I'm not ready
To be on my own without you.
Insecure, not sure if you feel it too?
Or is it just me?
And I'm just a girl
And we both break the same
Stepping back from the flame
That we burnt together
Blurred, giddy, blind
Never sure of what I'll find
When I see your face again
Sharing the joy or the pain
Of a love alive, or has it died?!
When I wasn't looking
I don't know how to say goodbye
So I won't even try….
As any words choke in my chest
Disgusted at the destruction they bring
As I stand knowingly
In the wake of the whirl wind
That was you
So I'll sing you a lullaby
As a way out, without a goodbye
So hush my love, not another word
Forget our love and how I got hurt
I'll calm you with an almost silent song
Of such bitter sweet wonders
Of how the right love can go wrong
I'll hold you so tight
As I sing you to sleep tonight
You'll drift into sleep, far away from me
And I'll say goodbye in our loves last lullaby
So hush my love as you walk away
From me
Something's they say
I have a bag full of days
Spent without you
You were without me too
But never forgotten….
And you're no sure if you want me?
What is that supposed to mean?
Who would I be?
All on my own.
It's not that I need you….
It's just that I love you….
It makes me want you
Always
Or just for another day
So we can find another way
Around this mess
And I can't beg you to stay
If you're intent on running away
Don't worry, I'll hold myself together
You won't be blamed for my tears
It couldn't last forever
I'll just hold my head
On high
Try not to cry
Sleep away the emptiness
Smile away the sorrow
And wish away the pain
Of a br
Vague Recollection of Yesterda by princess-erin, literature
Literature
Vague Recollection of Yesterda
You're what I look for
When I'm missing a part of me
As I carefully
Pace round my head
Turning my world upside down
For a piece of the puzzle
That might never even fit
When I'm in disarray
Constantly trying to seek away
Out of here. Close to tears
I'll catch a memory of you
Like a split-second scent
Steadying me back inside myself again
And I'm trying to be strong
Yet holding on
To a vague recollection of yesterdays
Where we will always
Be together
What if I start loosing ground?
Falling without a sound…
Would you catch me?
Out of love or hate?
Or some other state, of mind?!
Because I can't hold myself up around you
A
I can't loose myself
In you
If your not here
Nowhere near
Where I am
You're a safe place
I can hide
And always find
Me again
But now I'm loosing myself out there
And it's so large will I ever get where,
I want to be with you
I want to be with you
I'm too aware of
Everything
Standing in the middle of a down pour
Trying to make sense of chaos
Which rains down
On me
You'll never be
Just another love sick Romeo
Stuck in a fairy tale
You're too real to be perfect
I treasure such
Imperfections
Hoarding them safely in my chest
Jewels in my heart and lungs
More precious than
Air
These thoughts scream in my head
Whisper in my heart
Attack my senses
Yet I shall forever dance around you
In Silence
Is it easy to forget yourself
While you're up visiting the stars
Lost in careless dreaming
At your summer home in Mars
Is it easy to forget yourself
When you leave your dreams behind
You don't know where you left them
Dreams are the hardest things to find
Is it easy to forget yourself
When you don't know what to believe
Searching for he answers impatiently
Like a child on Christmas Eve
Is it easy t forget yourself
When you're stuck inside your head
Loosing track of memory and time
Your illusions become your death bed
To me your rain that falls while I'm warm in bed
That I watch and smile at
Listening intently to its "pitter, patter" pillow talk
That I'm totally in love with
(Does that mean I love you to?)
You're like bitter sweet mocha with cream
I'll sip you with out thought while I people watch
Bubbling in my mouth like the butterflies in my tummy
I'll cradle your cup close to my chest
Comforting me in that coffee shop way
That I can't explain
You remind me of my favourite crease shirt
That I couldn't bare to be with out
I feel invisible to all
Standing there hidden by such beautiful imperfections
The world's largest contradiction
Our bodes hate us
Rejects of the mind
Fumbling through our darkness
Afraid of what we'll find
To indulge the body
Which numbs the pain
Drink from a bottle
Won't have to hurt again
It's all just a game
Where love isn't real
Body does what it can
To try to forget how to feel
Don't have to think
But all to aware
Just reacting to situations
Too tired to even care
In a world full of chaos
One page is in order
Yet does it really matter
If that page doesn't make sense?
Awkward and i know it by princess-erin, literature
Literature
Awkward and i know it
Sometimes I'm awkward and I know it
I can barely keep still
One look from you and
I'm bouncing off the walls
My lips tremble and won't be stilled
Sometimes I'm lost and I can't help it
I stare and I'm gone
You think I'm here but
I'm out in the universe somewhere
You can't find me it'd take too long
And I can't be perfect just for you
And I won't change everything
Just to be an anything
To you
Sometimes I'm scared, there's nothing for it
I hide emotion up my sleeve
We play hide and seek
With my heart and mind
But if it gets too much I might ask you to leave
And I can't be perfect just for you
And I won't change everything
As I walk in the room
You throw a quick smile my way
Hoping it will hit the spot
Wouldn't want me to catch the lie
I see through every time
What are we now?
And as we make love
You don't smile just have a look…
Of concentration
Your eyes glaze over, not even here
I turn my head not to see
You not looking at me
And what are we now?
As we lie down to sleep
I feel this cold in between us
There is a chill in my heart and
A shiver at the distance not just in bed
But from what we used to be and
What we are now.
So what are we now?
Let me love you like a storm
I'll be fearless as I whirl around you
Wrapping you in my warmth
Don't run away
As I hail down my blue kisses on you
Please don't batten down hatches
I won't pound down your door
Just let me love you fiercely
Let me love you like a storm
Don't set boundaries on how much I can
Love you
I won't be trapped within your walls
Let me love you like the storm
Wild and free and I'll love nobody…
But you.
And you can't keep me down
Let me love you like a storm
I'll passionately care for you
As I destroy your perceptions of love
Don't be scared
I'll turn your world upside down
But you won't be alone
I
I'm stuck in a moment
Your face close to mine
Every slow breath, every perfect imperfection
Are stuck in time
In a moment…with me
I'm stuck in a moment
Totally unaware of everyone
But you
Every sweet stolen kiss, every boiling embrace
Stuck in a summer snap shot
In that moment…with me
I'm stuck in a moment
With my comfy t-shirt and jeans
Every cradled night in, every comfortable cuddle
Are stuck in my min
I'm stuck in that moment…with you
I'm stuck in a moment
Alone in my room
Every mid-day row, every mid-night make up
Every lost minute, day, hour without you
I'm stuck in his moment
Even lost in this moment…missing you
I was hoping to send a message across the galaxy,
through the barren rocks and dusty megalomania of time,
a message for you;
I've been lost in mental space for days now.
I don't care how you see me,
it's an out of date image.
Old stamps on old postcards of people gone by,
sender and receiver both eliminated from this consciousness;
their only trace their line of communication.
I think I trained myself into loving you,
because no one could have such adoration
so naturally.
Not for you.
I told you to go and grind the dirt of your existence
into someone elses niches.
I told you that I'd been anaesthetised to your hate,
to whateve
Porcelain doll with tangled hair,
People pass or stop and stare,
Her cotton clothes are ripped and torn,
Her parents regret the day she was born,
Her plastic heart has melted down,
Her stunning smile, a perfect frown,
Her shining future, a blackened road,
Her flowing words, a fucked up code.
Once glowing eyes, now dark and dead,
And voices scream inside her head,
A falling rain of acid tears,
Mirrors reflecting all her fears,
A fire raging through her veins,
Drugs to reduce all her pains,
Her porcelain skin, now scarred and bruised,
Her staggering beauty, now gone and used.
A foreign beauty, now buried alone,
A cryptic place
Forever, have I lost you?
You're fading from my sight.
Can you not see we're falling?
We're dying in the night.
My heart is yours, Forever,
I'll never turn away.
I'll wait for you to find me.
I'll try to make you stay.
You promised me, Forever,
To make our hearts as one.
Did you forget, Forever,
To tell me we were done?
Forever, will you hold me,
And sooth my heart to sleep?
Tell me again, Forever,
That I'm the one you'll keep.
My heart will beat, Forever,
Until you bid it rest.
I'll live for you, Forever.
I'll try to pass this test.
Forever, I feel empty,
My heart has told a lie.
Forever, can you promise
That you won't
1.
I started this poem at midnight
with cigarette smoke choking my skin
and the outside air clogging up
my cold lungs.
The damp floor stole my seat, so I just stood in the dark
looking up.
2.
I see nothing-ness, just black with the occasional
pale yellow moon clambering into my view.
I like how eyelashes curl upwards
and the blue of your irises, but that doesn't matter,
not now everything has squeezed into shadow.
And the clouds -
well they just hold onto happy things,
letting go of the ugly
hard-hitting rain drops
and gasps of wind.
Don't laugh but sometimes
I think I'm like a pomegrana
Over dusty shoulders I see
a world I'll never win, and I should be anywhere..
Anywhere but here..
Dirty chalk clouds slur through a city sky
until they drop off the stale earth,
and this is my story, and I shall follow them,
and I shall fall. Harsh and ugly.
We lived life like we were the only ones not broken.
Your heart was the fist matching my bruises,
we were misplaced children, collapsed from our worlds
and collided.
We tugged our skin on the trees we climbed, trying to kidnap stars,
you tripped me up once or twice
and I stared at you
while you let your fingers
I'm so tired.
What else is there to say,
To feel,
But tired.
I don't know if you're watching,
Or even if you care.
But right now I sit here,
And I taste here,
And I dare you,
To simply kneel.
Tell yourself,
That you're wonderful,
In every possibly way.
Convince me to stay,
And watch you,
Grow into,
The beauty you're meant to be.
Put that smile on your face,
Your crown jewel,
That something,
That made me love you.
Friendship is special,
But you alone,
Are special to me.
So give me that glow,
That I die to see,
In your bright eyes.
Reassure me that,
Tonight,
All will be fine.
Make me feel,
Wonderful,
Because you'
Awkward and i know it by princess-erin, literature
Literature
Awkward and i know it
Sometimes I'm awkward and I know it
I can barely keep still
One look from you and
I'm bouncing off the walls
My lips tremble and won't be stilled
Sometimes I'm lost and I can't help it
I stare and I'm gone
You think I'm here but
I'm out in the universe somewhere
You can't find me it'd take too long
And I can't be perfect just for you
And I won't change everything
Just to be an anything
To you
Sometimes I'm scared, there's nothing for it
I hide emotion up my sleeve
We play hide and seek
With my heart and mind
But if it gets too much I might ask you to leave
And I can't be perfect just for you
And I won't change everything
i can't believe i last loggin in here 2 years ago it's seems like forever. I kinda lost myself when i came back from costa rica, and i'm still not quiet sur where that "self" is....
Hello so i am leaving in a few days to go to Costa Rica till about July, leaving on the 6th Feb. I've been pretty quiet for a while, lacking any inspiration so if i continue my silence it will be because i'm busy. i feel so amazingly tired and bored and really want a hug lol.
LOL, yeah, Daniel's working in Tesco's & going to college most of the time...so we don't see alot of him coz he's either there or at Sarah's....I've just been doing some freelance webdesign work (which is paying off, because now i'm getting massive lumps of cash in my bank account in time for Xmas!) But I still need a proper job for January...